"Recovering? Not Really. But Hey, The Day is Over Eventually"
Originally created on Wed, 040506
--Morning Journal--
**Notes: Please read the notes on the previous posting. Just to remind y'all again, I'm still holding on! :P**
OMG it's only Wednesday! A wet one (again)! Oh well.. it's supposed to be the hardest part of the week, the middle of the week where everyone seems to be meeting and everything. But oh well, at least I got an earlier start, leaving home at 8.15 this morning, hopefully will be at work before 9 and so I can leave work by 5. Yay!
Anyway, I’m not really crazy about what I’m gonna deal with at work today. The database that I’m working on right now is a REAL mess. My team has been doing this marathon work cleaning the database and for some stupid (technical, so-called bug) reason, most of our work would probably be useless. I just don't get it; most of us have been working literally 12 hours a day, all week! And this issue seems to get worse and worse and no other way seems to be safe except redoing all the work.
The good part is (or maybe the worst part), my dear boss still insists that the deadline is staying at April 10th (it's 5 days away by the way). And we still have like over 6000 products to clean up. Just for comparison, it took us one full week to clean 1000 products. So you go figure. Now why did I say it might be the good part? Well, probably he will see the reality and push the deadline back to.. I don't know.. June 10th? Heh..
Santa Clara station now, I’m taking an express train today. Well, such my luck.. :P
Now let's talk about life, my life to be specific. This is no better day than yesterday. I still feel weak, emotionally wrecked, not knowing what to do, not sure what to decide, and I don't seem to be capable of deciding anything right now. I just don't understand what I have done wrong that I deserve all these lies and deceits and games. I’m just so tired of all this. I’d rather stay away of it. I’d rather know what I should expect instead of expecting something higher just to deal with the reality that I have to be disappointed later. I have expressed it clearly, I don't want any more lies, I don't want anymore games, I just want to live my life straight, concentrating on my future, just a normal life the way every other human being around me is living. Is that too much to ask?
Anyway, I gotta get ready to get off, passed the Sunnyvale station now. See ya later then..
Help. I have done it again.
I have been here many times before..
--Afternoon Journal--
OMG, another Wednesday just ended! And it was not such a bad one. Had fun at the company's meeting (you know, pizza, salad, coke, jokes). And well, the workload was okay, not too demanding (especially since I had to deal with the database bugs that somehow, holding me off from working marathonly). All in all, the only annoying thing was that Anthony keeps bugging me with his "understanding of doing the research as opposed to your understanding as a researcher." what the heck
Oh, one interesting thing about the database, it turned out that Alex was pat of the culprit who made unacceptable changes on the database. He changed some stuff which he is not supposed to simply because he wanted to show that he "did his update with the database." all I can say is, poor Alex. Arundhati was so satisfied making him feel guilty.. :P
Anyway, arriving Santa Clara station now. Another express train, two expresses in one day! What a life! You know, sometimes, when you have one good luck, it seems like others just flowing, following unexpectedly. That gives you quite nice little surprises. But when you get one bad luck, the whole day seems like not right, everything seems like in a bad place. It might not be entirely true but at least that's how it feels.
Another interesting thing is, guess what? It’s bright and shiny right now! I was like so amazed at how shiny it is like it is a summer time in between of wet dark and windy days. It is very pleasant to be able to walk under the sunlight feeling like you're under a spotlight. It just feels.. right.
I’m not sure what I’m gonna have for dinner though, probably go out somewhere, or just grab some salad at Safeway, or maybe, another instant cup noodle. Cooking? Ah.. I don't think so, not today. So, we'll see.
By the way, day 6 of my MacBook Pro. No problem this far (hopefully there really is no problem with this one). I was afraid it's simply because I haven't really fully explored and abused the whole system and everything (install stuff, delete stuff, change major preference and everything), but at least I got the 10.4.6 update on Mac OS X and the firmware update. And they all work fine so, let's hope for the best.
Big news today is that Apple announced the "support" for those who want to install Windows on Mac Intel. That is very exciting actually. I think I wanna give it a try. It’s gonna be a very interesting project to do and you know, I’m REALLY into that.. ;)
Anyway, 3 minutes away from San José station. Time to close the lid so, I’ll see ya in a bit!
--Morning Journal--
**Notes: Please read the notes on the previous posting. Just to remind y'all again, I'm still holding on! :P**
OMG it's only Wednesday! A wet one (again)! Oh well.. it's supposed to be the hardest part of the week, the middle of the week where everyone seems to be meeting and everything. But oh well, at least I got an earlier start, leaving home at 8.15 this morning, hopefully will be at work before 9 and so I can leave work by 5. Yay!
Anyway, I’m not really crazy about what I’m gonna deal with at work today. The database that I’m working on right now is a REAL mess. My team has been doing this marathon work cleaning the database and for some stupid (technical, so-called bug) reason, most of our work would probably be useless. I just don't get it; most of us have been working literally 12 hours a day, all week! And this issue seems to get worse and worse and no other way seems to be safe except redoing all the work.
The good part is (or maybe the worst part), my dear boss still insists that the deadline is staying at April 10th (it's 5 days away by the way). And we still have like over 6000 products to clean up. Just for comparison, it took us one full week to clean 1000 products. So you go figure. Now why did I say it might be the good part? Well, probably he will see the reality and push the deadline back to.. I don't know.. June 10th? Heh..
Santa Clara station now, I’m taking an express train today. Well, such my luck.. :P
Now let's talk about life, my life to be specific. This is no better day than yesterday. I still feel weak, emotionally wrecked, not knowing what to do, not sure what to decide, and I don't seem to be capable of deciding anything right now. I just don't understand what I have done wrong that I deserve all these lies and deceits and games. I’m just so tired of all this. I’d rather stay away of it. I’d rather know what I should expect instead of expecting something higher just to deal with the reality that I have to be disappointed later. I have expressed it clearly, I don't want any more lies, I don't want anymore games, I just want to live my life straight, concentrating on my future, just a normal life the way every other human being around me is living. Is that too much to ask?
Anyway, I gotta get ready to get off, passed the Sunnyvale station now. See ya later then..
Help. I have done it again.
I have been here many times before..
--Afternoon Journal--
OMG, another Wednesday just ended! And it was not such a bad one. Had fun at the company's meeting (you know, pizza, salad, coke, jokes). And well, the workload was okay, not too demanding (especially since I had to deal with the database bugs that somehow, holding me off from working marathonly). All in all, the only annoying thing was that Anthony keeps bugging me with his "understanding of doing the research as opposed to your understanding as a researcher." what the heck
Oh, one interesting thing about the database, it turned out that Alex was pat of the culprit who made unacceptable changes on the database. He changed some stuff which he is not supposed to simply because he wanted to show that he "did his update with the database." all I can say is, poor Alex. Arundhati was so satisfied making him feel guilty.. :P
Anyway, arriving Santa Clara station now. Another express train, two expresses in one day! What a life! You know, sometimes, when you have one good luck, it seems like others just flowing, following unexpectedly. That gives you quite nice little surprises. But when you get one bad luck, the whole day seems like not right, everything seems like in a bad place. It might not be entirely true but at least that's how it feels.
Another interesting thing is, guess what? It’s bright and shiny right now! I was like so amazed at how shiny it is like it is a summer time in between of wet dark and windy days. It is very pleasant to be able to walk under the sunlight feeling like you're under a spotlight. It just feels.. right.
I’m not sure what I’m gonna have for dinner though, probably go out somewhere, or just grab some salad at Safeway, or maybe, another instant cup noodle. Cooking? Ah.. I don't think so, not today. So, we'll see.
By the way, day 6 of my MacBook Pro. No problem this far (hopefully there really is no problem with this one). I was afraid it's simply because I haven't really fully explored and abused the whole system and everything (install stuff, delete stuff, change major preference and everything), but at least I got the 10.4.6 update on Mac OS X and the firmware update. And they all work fine so, let's hope for the best.
Big news today is that Apple announced the "support" for those who want to install Windows on Mac Intel. That is very exciting actually. I think I wanna give it a try. It’s gonna be a very interesting project to do and you know, I’m REALLY into that.. ;)
Anyway, 3 minutes away from San José station. Time to close the lid so, I’ll see ya in a bit!
Labels: Jurnal
